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[Oct. 26th, 2009|09:54 pm] |
Craniotomy,
that was what i had like,
6 weeks ago.
The first night at the hospial was scary,
even though i slept like a pig.
I am a guy who's afraid of pain and especially needles,
AND I HAVE TO BE POKE LIKE A MILLION TIMES!
But, gradually, i got used to the needles and it's dont really hurt anymore.
I got pushed into the operating theatre at 7am in the morning on the 14th September 2009.
Well, i was damn scared. My mum and dad arrived just before i went in, i wanted to cry, but of course i didnt.
SCARY LA OKAY.
I texted b, letting her know, i will be going in, and will be coming out for her after it.
I am so going to cause so much worries, especially bunny.
The amount of pain my family and bunny's gonna go through, i can only feel it physically.
It only took the surgeons 10 seconds to knock me out, putting me into a deepdeep sleep,
which honestly only felt like 15mins or so.
I dont know what they did to me when i was asleep,
but when i woke up, all i feel was pain around my head and i was
so, so, tired.
I was so glad to be able to see my family when they woke me up,
it would be perfect if b was there as well. (:
3 days in the high dependency ward,
3 days of sleep.
3 days of fever.
and 3 days of not knowing what is happening to me.
All i was hoping was, when can i have the energy and strength to grab hold
of me phone so i can let b know that i am all well and i'm okay so she can
worry alittle lesser.
After 3 days, they took some tube off my shoulder and my head,
which i swear, HURTS LIKE HELL,
and then they sent me up to the normal ward.
but something happened to me,
my face swelled up like nobody's business
that even opening my eyes was almost impossible.
It must be so hurtful to see me like this. ):
THEN,
B CAME TO VISIT ME!
but, she has to see me in such state. ):
I am sorry b...
I was reallyreally happy that you came all the way,
with such a big and cute balloon, :P
I love you b.
She stayed for a while only though,
but being able to see her really cheered me up so so much
and gave me so much strength. :D
Thank you b.
The 9 days stay in the hospital was horrible.
The food,
the environment.
The bed was made of rubber, so it traps heat when you lie on it.
Me, being a person who's so afraid of heat has to TAHAN the heat trapping
bed for like 9 days, horrible.
Friends came to visit,
my mum, brother and dasao came everyday,
and looking at them coming when they were
so tired made me so guilty.
Thank you mum and dad.
Thank you jiejie.
Thank you korkor and mag jiejie.
Thank you everyone who cared about me,
and even made your way down to visit and accompany me,
i really appreciate it.
This part is for you, baby.
And to you, baby,
i'm sorry you had to go through so much,
it must have been so painful for you baby.
all the waiting, and being not able to come and
visit me when you so want to do it.
sweetheart,
even though you didnt really manage to visit me as much,
but i swear, i feel you there with me always.
I know, you were always there for me.
Making you cry so much,
making you so worried really made me so guilty. ):
but baby, everything's over already.
the worse is over already.
All those will never happen again.
I am really so happy that you never gave up on me darling
and stayed with me throughout.
You gave me strength to withstand all the pain baby.
But still, you've went through so much. ):
So,
i am going to promise you,
i will make up for it baby.
Our secret, always together.
I love you, b.
And i promise you, i will always love you.
And, no matter what happens,
i will never ever leave you alone.
I will always be there for you. i promise. |
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